Random Dozen…The Last Regularly Scheduled One


They say “all good things must come to an end”, and so it is with the regular weekly meme “The Random Dozen” which has been hosted by “Lid” over at 2nd cup of coffee.  I am grateful to “Lid” for hosting this meme for so long.  Because of my participation in this meme, I’ve made many blog friends that I probably wouldn’t have found, otherwise.  I do hope “Lid” will host an occasional Random Dozen so we can all get together for a “reunion” of sorts!  

Today “Lid” is sending us off with two final, random questions to ponder…

1. What scares you the most

A) Physically
B) Emotionally

Why does it scare you, and how do you cope?

My biggest fear, physically and emotionally,  in life is the fear of “becoming very ill” again.  Back in 1994, when I was first struck with an “auto immune disease”, I was knocked off my feet and out of life.  At first, I could barely move any of my joints–closing my hands was impossible.  I was in constant pain, and I had fatigue so bad that I couldn’t walk 50 feet without having to sit down.  I ran low-grade fevers every day.  I couldn’t eat, and my hair began to fall out.  Life, as I knew it previously, was over.  It took months of trying different medications, before my doctor found the right combination to put my disease into remission, and more months after that, to regain my stamina.  I’ve never forgotten those miserable months…I always feel like I am living with a ticking time bomb in my pocket, because this ugly disease can flare up again at any time…In the meantime, I continue to take the daily “meds” that help keep this disease “at bay”–knowing full well that those “meds” are a double-edged sword, and are harming my body in some ways while helping it in others. 

I cope with my fears through prayer, and by living life one day at a time.  I enjoy the good days, and endure the bad days, hoping that they won’t last too long.  I learned a long time ago how to live “a new normal”.  I do not take one day of my life for granted.    I now realize that good health is the most important gift a person can have.  If you still have yours, thank God for it.

2. What comes to mind when you read the phrase, “Nothing gold can stay?” 

Whenever I read the poem from which this quote came, it made me want to cry.  I was thinking how things are always changing, and can never stay the same.  Sometimes, change is good, but for me, it’s always hard!  I spent hours and hours last week making video montages of my little granddaughter’s first four years of life,  in honor of her fourth birthday.  I cried every time I watched one of them–realizing how fast time is passing, and how much she is changing–along with the rest of us.

While searching for songs to use in Madison’s video montages, I found a very moving video on YouTube.  I’d like to end this post by sharing it with you.  It goes along with the theme of “changing”…Enjoy–and get a tissue!

Published in: on October 27, 2010 at 10:06 am  Comments (9)  

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  1. Change is hard for most of us I think. For me its a reminder that God does not want us to cling too tightly to this earthly life. It has been a hard lesson to learn.

    I’m glad you’ve been able to manage your health issues to a degree that are. Sounds like a tough road to walk.

    I didn’t see a link to a video?

  2. Oh, I love the song. I used it in a post once way back when. I was feeling a lot like you that day!


    I loved the photos in this video.

  3. I certainly understand your fears. I agree we should live life one day at a time. I want to be living in the now and being thankful for the health that I do have.

    I understand your feelings about how quickly time is passing. My daughter is getting married and it feels like it was just yesterday that she was a toddler!

  4. This post really hits home! I think we can all understand your fears and concerns.

  5. Good answers. Bless your heart, I am glad you have your disease under control. We just never know do we? But just think one day you will never have to worry about it again.
    I loved the song, yes it did make me teary eyed. My grandbaby Eden was four this year too and she is just growing up so fast. Just like her momma did!
    until next time… nel

  6. Whew! I just read your last three posts and boy it sounds like you had a busy weekend! We were one of those families at Party City on Saturday stuck with every one else in the costume aisle, so I know exactly what you are talking about!

    Happy Belated Birthday to your little treasure!

    I’m sure you’ll get many more “opportunities” to “enjoy” Chuck E Cheese in the future 🙂

  7. Kathy Im subscribing to your blog.. im your newest follower… LOve it!!!!!

  8. That video was so sweet. And, I’m like you when it comes to change. It’s always rather hard on me, but I guess it’s just a part of life. I keep telling myself that God isn’t going to throw anything my way that He knows I can’t handle. Have a blessed day !!!

  9. beautiful video. very soothing and love the words.

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